bout time i update

its been awhile ahaha. . . .
So how do i sum up 2 months?
Well school is going great, good teachers and good grades!
I am enjoying how much my life has been changing but everything is blowing by sooo fast
i definitley does not feel like November, but it is & yay that means the holiday's are super close!
i dont know what God has in store for these next few months but i feel like there gonna be very different than normal, i believe everything happens for a reason & God has been letting alot of things happen in my life right now haha dont know if thats good or bad?lol

well for now :)

another update

. . .well this weekend was busy.
I love working at the church on Sundays as the Pre-k teacher, but waking up for that at 5am
not so much.

. .Cowboys had there 1st loss of the season this weekend i was really bumed :(

. .Yesterday after 5:00 service my parents and i went to see the movie "My Best Friends Girl"
we knew it was rated R but we figured it wouldnt b too bad just some language here & there & i really wanted to see it since Kate Hudson is my favorite actress. WELL turns out we were wrong. Typical right?ha it wasn't just the language but everything else was literally so bad me & my parents decided to leave. ha what a great family movie night!

. . .im thinking bout heading off to camber deep right now. i hae been super bored all day

why is everyone always busy? beats me

Changes

okay wow. . .things change so fast!
i decided to turn down the nanny job after really thinking about it
i decided it wasnt the job for me, so now i am back on the job hunt but its all good : D
Tori is coming home this weekend should be another fun filled weekend
Can i just say that hanging out with keira this week has been FANTASTIC, i am thrilled she's
back & tonight i will get to see her lil pretty face at Camber like old times!

I have been trying to read more lately. . it really informs me about things im unaware of
so hopefully i can start a new book soon and actually finish one.ha
for now

the weekend is FINALLY here

well i got the Job as a nanny! I can't believe how good God is, even when i don't deserve it. I found a new job within a week, thats amazing to me! It seems like it takes forever to find a job & i am so lucky to have gotten one right after i left my other job.

This is a very exciting weekend & i have alot planned, tommorrow me & amanda & shan are making shirts for when keira comes home! Then Sunday i will actually get to see keiras sweet lil face! I have been waiting for this day for a while & its finally here : D its gonna be a crazy scene at the airport!

well right now im off to far places with amanda : D

Nanny?

So recently i have been looking for a new job & i just got a phone call
from a friend at church today and it turns out a family is looking for
a nanny and they heard about me. I just talkted to the family tonight &
i am meeting with them on thursday! Please pray that i can get this job.
i cant believe how things work out and God is so amazing he
provides for me when i least expect it :)

What can i say, John McCain was smart in picking Sara Palin for V.P. and it just makes this election even more exciting for me personally and for alot of republicans out there. Sara Palin is such an intellegent women and yet she still has guts, shes a real person shes a mom and a leader. I fully support John McCain and Sara palin, they can definitley count on my vote! I know some may disagree with my decision,but i know that McCain is alot more fit to run this country than Barack Obama will ever be.

Man i sure wish Tori was here with me right now to talk politics ha ha :D

McCain*Palin 2008!

disagree? leave me a comment & we'll chat

Times of change

Wow i feel like im changing so much lately. My feelings go from one to the other
God is doing something in me but i just dont know what yet. I have decided to major in journalism & i hope that im making the right decison, but who knows people change there majors all the time. School is alot different than i've ever been used to but i can say that it is a good change.

I just foound out that i will no longer have a job as of this friday, the restaurant i work at is closing down : ( After working there for almost 2 years it feels odd to picture myself at another job. But i have to find a job soon because i do have a monthly car payment.ha
So i applied to work as a waitress or hostess at Red Lobster so im praying i can get a job because places dont really hire that much now days. I am also going to apply as a receptionist at a Animal Hospital which would be an awesome job if i got it! We'll see what happens. . .

Update

So School's been going good, we ALWAYS have homework though : (
I start my modern dance class tomorrow, should be fun!

I have been really busy lately & i officially got the job at Cornerstone working in the heartland ministries. Turns out i got to take over Tori's Pre-k classroom & the kids are just the sweetest thing in the world i love them to death . Tori really did a great job teaching jesus to those kids.ha i hope i can keep up!lol I am excited that God has given me an opportunity like this i love hepling out at the church!!!

Man oh man i am at the edge of my seat filled with excitement because i can officially text keira when shes in London & within 2 short weeks keira will be home. I know she had to do God's work, but thanks to the Lord that the time has come for her to go home & be with her sheep : D

the more i seek you

The more i seek you,
the more i find you
The more i find you,
the more I love you

I wanna sit at your feet drink from the cup in your hand.
Lay back against you and breath,
here your heart beat
This love is so deep,
it's more than I can stand.
I melt in your peace, it's overwhelming

ahhh. . .thats all

Freshman agian, Yuck!

Well i have English tommorrow & im excited but dont really know what to expect, hopefully i wont get a 5-page essay the first day.lol im so glad im not taking a Math class right now or else i would probably be driving myself crazy this year. wowo saying this year feels weird cuz its not like other ears, i wonder what God has in store oooh & i cant wait for my dance class to start!lol even though im taking Modern Dance & that can sometimes be weird i am still excited to give it a try haha

hangin out

Hey everyone just checkin in. i just got done spending the day with Tori & her roommate & we actually had fun in boring old Tucson.haha

now i'm just chillin in Toris dorm  & were all exhausted & hungry

But i might add im a tad claustrophobic : D

well for now. . . .

Waiting on God's Timing

At times God can steer you in one direction & then you think your doing what God

wants but then he decides to flip things upside down. It is crazy & thats what i feel like is going

on right now in my life. I feel like what is God wanting from me right now? Im stuck in Arizona

when one to many friends are leaving to college or moving or going on mission trips. So this year

is deffinitley going to be wayyy different its going to Change alot & i dont know if i like that.

i greatly regret not going to a univeristy this year but, its not God's plan for me to go out of state

right now hopefully next year. . who knows? Whatever God wants from me this year is so

confusing to me right now but i pray that he can show me what he wants & why im stuck

here. in this state of nothingness. (well thats a bit dramatic, but thats what my lifes feeling

like compared to other peoples amazing stories & plans that God has for them)

im blessed

Lemon Lu Lu & Tammy The Tulip? Ha!

Can i just say that i love you lacie?lol some of the best times i've ever had are with this girly wether it watching chick flicks, chugging Dr Pepper or talking about Boy problems & i am so blessed that God has given me such a super friend. . .because what can i say were a movie! i mean what friends can talk in baby voices & get away with it being adorable?lol none but us haha P.S. i'm still marrying Joe Jonas though : D sorry love ya! muhaha

^man who knew that, that trip was gonna turn out the way it did? well at least we have the memory of wrestling on the hotel bed while kaitlyn was screaming! ha ha

im craving something sweet!

well it has been a long sunday filled with many emotions. Today was Tori's last day at church before she goes to U of A this week. I must have been insane but i've never really faced the truth & it really hit home today. Tori is leaving & its sad but i know God is sending her to Ghetto Tucson for a reason.lol & if i have to drive up there every 2 weeks to keep in touch then i will :D

these past couple of weeks i've had an emotion that i cannot describe. . i dont really know how to explain how i feel. . .odd huh? i guess so much haas gone on. what a summer

Later this evening i went with my parents to 5:00 service & Len spoke a really awesome message. I know as a christian there is many things that keep you from growing closer to God & it makes it difficult to stay connected to him & if there's any "boxes" in your life that you need to give them up. God is the only one who gives me life & i know his yoke is the only thing i want to take on in my life.

my saturday

so i am about to head off to my friends youth service & then later tonight were going to watch Notebook & eat junk food & just have an all around good time! Cant wait

im so exhausted i barely got any sleep last night & now i have to get up at 5 tomorrow morning for church! yay thank the lord for Coffee : D

Bye now. . .

i love a good worship song

Thank the lord for good music, right now i am trying to learn a new worship song called " The more i seek you" it is such a beautiful song & i encourage anyone & everyone to listen to it. Its on my playlist : D

Well im going to go wash my car right now & Spray the water hose at the Dogs haha my favorite!

Headed off to Camber later fun fun

i'm goin crazy here! Save me jesus : )

so i havent been on the internet for awhile
alot has gone on this summer & im glad that school is starting soon, i cant believe i just said im excited to start school but i am : D
I feel so out of place ever since i graduated, for the longest time i've been so used to a short summer & then back to school, but now i have such a long summer that im going crazy im not used to all this extra time.haha
i hate not having a busy schedule it drives me insane most people would kill to have a life style thats less hectic but not me. I love action & always running somewhere. . .so having absolutley nothing to do right now is making me hyper : D
i wish i was starting school soon but i still have a week left : (
im feeling very optimistic right now
i need a change but i just dont know what kind of a change.lol if that makes sence?
well keira is coming home in less than a month & i couldnt be more thrilled!!!

things are happening so fast!

so last night i basically hurt my shoulder trying to lift something while talking on the phone & lifting something in my other hand at the same time. . .not a good idea. .now i can barely lift my shoulder : (

tonight me & Tori are going to go to the Seasons Love concert so that should be fun. . .

tommorrow i have to go take stupid assets tests, so that should be a thrill!

can't wait for camber. . .

P.S. i miss keira sooooo much & the second she gets off the plane Tori & I are taking her to BJ's to have the best pazookie ever, she deserves it after eating all those Rice & Beans down in Africa : D

what a morning

To start off this morning has been terrible, my alarm clock was set for 5:00 am so i could get up & make it to church by 7:00am to help watch kids with Tori before merge. My alarm never went off & i woke up after 7:00. I'm rushing to get ready & then when im ready to go i find out i cant take my car because it might break down. . .My dad had to go to work so he couldn't take me to church either. . .
so right now i am stuck at home. . .my car is STILL not fixed & now i missed church

i feel like i'm 12 years old & i cant go anywhere. .fun fun

yay, no i have to stay home all day, so exciting!

i don't know what the title should be

i don't know what to blog about lately. . .

ya know how you make popcorn the old fashioned way on the stove in a pan. . .as soon as the pop corn starts popping, then all the rest of those hundred kernels start popping everywhere all at once, i feel like one of those popcorn kernels ha : D weird anology huh?

i can't believe Tori is leaving in 4 weeks, it just doesn't feel like there's enought time left to spend with her before she goes. . .soon me & shannon will be without Tori & Keira. i feel like God blessed me with these friends & now he's just ripping them right out of my life. I know im not suppose to always understand God's plans but that doesnt make things easier. Well at least i am blessed to have a little time left with Tori before she leaves & i become a loner haha

just to let you know, when you read my blogs i will go from one topic to the next & they don't always tie together, because i am random & as soon as one thought pops into my head i start typing it. So im sorry, if you don't like it, then don't read my blog lol : D

My mom is having surgery tommorrow morning so if anyone who reads this could pray for her, that would be really thoughtful.

For now,

Tamara

blah. . .

. saturday was my bday party, i had fun & i am glad that all my friends came

. Sunday i went to the 9 oclock service with Bree & Josh & her family. . .it was a really good sermon, then Amanda, me, David & kevin went to Pei Wei. yumm

. today im going to spend time with an old neighboor who is very lonely & is in deffinite need of some company. . .elders are so sweet : )

well i guess im going to spend the night at lacies tonight. . .i feel blah

P.S. God's plans for me are WAYY bigger than i thought. . .he still keeps me in awe everyday

feels like a long day

Hey everyone just a reminder my Party is tommorrow at 5:00pm!!!
After everyone eats, were planning on leaving the house at 7:00 or 8:00pm the latest for the Scavenger Hunt, make sure you bring your digital camera to the party
Send me a comment if you need directions. . .

yay the Dark Night came out today, Heath Ledger looks sooo scary in that movie but i cant wait to see it!

p.s. right now i am so bored : /

SunSplash & The Mine

Yesterday was a LONG DAY, I met up with Tori at SunSplash with the Kids that Tori nannies. Then Sam shows up & sees us by the lockers, turns out he bought a ticket to the wrong water park when tori said were at "SUNSPLASH". But i guess Sam didn't put 2 in 2 together.lol (no offence sam) So he ended up getting someones wrist band & got into the water park. It was a fun day,i got some sun & Tori got Sun Burnt haha, sorry tor!

Then later that night we went to the Mine, it was a good sermon & basically a slap inthe face to me & Tori. We went over Timothy 2 which is one of my favs, Jeff Royce is so smart i wish i knew as much as he did. Basically we were reminded that when u have problems u shouldn't always be running to a friend, when God's right there wanting to lift that weight off of your shoulders. So don't let your pride fool you into thinking you can things on your own, because your not gonna go very far without God.

P.S. I get my baby back in a day! i miss my car soo much that im going to hug the seats when i get in it. . . i know i'm a creeper right tori? ha ha

A sigh of relief

Well yesterday was my Birthday & halfway through the day i was feeling down my dad was upset & i felt like it was ruining the day. But later things got better & i enjoyed going out to dinner with my family. I had a big steak for dinner, yumm. . .lol i could never be a VEGETARIAN. While i was at dinner i got to talk to my parents about alot thats been going on in my life lately. It was nice to have them listen and give me advice. That night i realized that even though my parents aren't anywhere near perfect i am still very lucky to have them as my parents & i thank God for my Family as CRAZY as they are, there still MY FAMILY : )


P.S. if you've never heard the song "WASHED BY THE WATERS" go down to my playlist and listen its soothing & reminds me that Gods sittin right there with me when you're feelin down

Great Experience!

today i had my worship audition and i was a little nervous, i didn't really know how it would turn out being that it was my first audition i've ever had. But God amazes me. . . .i was praying before my audition and i was like "God if this is what you want me to do your gonna have to help me out, because i feel like i'm needing some strength right now". When i went up on stage all of my fears & worries about messing up went away, my audition experience went very well. I am glad to say that God really let me use my passion for singing shine at that audition.

even when i feel alone or scared God really is always there at anytime or any experience and he is in control & trust me i am more than okay with that


tamara

wow! this teams amazing

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1WNyNp9-zwI

being rained on

So yesterday i had to work (yuck), but then i hung out with Tori afterwards we went swimming, then headed off to camber. Might i add i thought worship was amazing last night, and i nearly lost my voice, not a good thing when i have Worship Auditions on Saturday! : / Then the whole gang went to TGI Fridays & it was lots of fun but leaving there was even more fun. I couldn't even walk to my car without being soaking wet, this was the hardest i've ever seen it rain in AZ it was the best! ofcourse knowing my dad he wanted to take our car out and drive REALLY FAST through the flooded streets, there where cars stauled everywhere cuz it was flooded but not ours ha ha. i don't think there's an inch on our car thats not covered in mudd. Fun times. . . .I LOVE THE RAIN

tamara. . . .

or as lacie would say "tammy the tulip" ha ha no, HATE THAT

Almost attaked by a pack of Wild Coyotes

yep the title pretty much says it all. So Tori and I were standing outside keiras house chatting with lindsey having a good time as usual. Then Tori stops talking and says coyotes are coming down the mountain, of course Lindsey and I don't believe her. . .then we hear the pack of coyotes howling and fighting and the sound just keeps coming closer and closer. Tori then starts to run to her car freaked out and i follow her. Then i start screaming and we basically take off down the street 50 mph.



so. . .lesson learned don't stay outside late at night by the mountain at Keiras house or you 'll get attaked by coyotes. enough said : )

 i finally made it to the blogging world, i am thrilled to be here (not). . .more to come soon : )